Halfway

I'm at the half-way mark on this year's 52 WEEKS project.  After doing this previously (three times) and coming this far I thought it would be easier to follow through but I find this fourth time just as much of a challenge as the first.  The first few pieces in the year have always been the most difficult...leaving me feeling out of my depth.  The beginning is challenging until I have a few pieces behind me, and let me tell you, sharing the work publicly as I go is very, very hard.  I judge each piece, questioning myself, the work, my choices of everything - colour, subject matter, execution.  But, on the flip side, sharing the progress publicly seems to keep me committed.  I feel bound to keep going, even if no one is watching. It's as though I have made a promise and it would be rude not to keep it.  There is something to be said for this kind of responsibility as in the end it is so good for me and my artistic practice as become more confident as I go, even when the paintings don't become what I had envisioned.