'How Will You Ever Choose?'

Whenever I'm out with friends or family (in this case, my lovely husband) I become all philosphical...well, maybe I'm always that way as I was labelled a 'dreamer' by parents and teachers.  I like to think of myself as reflective.  Anyway, while we were out I saw this sign "How will you ever choose?" which I know was in reference to the menu, but it felt so much deeper than that.

I have always wondered what my next steps should be as I travel on this path.  Am I making the right choices?  What do I want the end result to be?  And yet, I always know that whenever I stop and allow things to happen naturally, not only am I not frustrated and anxious, but the most wonderful things happen and I tend to have the greatest time.  A reminder to be present.  I don't know why not only do I need to be reminded of that daily, but constantly throughout each day.

I also recently read an article about the combination of opposite traits that make-up a Creative Personality and I find myself constantly fluctuating between every one of these ten sets of traits:

1.  Energy / Rest
2.  Smart / Naive
3.  Playful / Disciplined
4.  Imagination / Reality
5.  Extroverted / Introverted
6.  Humble / Proud
7.  Masculine / Feminine
8.  Rebellious / Conservative
9.  Passionate / Objective
10. Open / Sensitive

No wonder I struggle.  The times when I'm away from my studio are always the most difficult.  I know I need that time in my sacred space to remain grounded, to live in the moment.  I need to figure out how to carry that balance with me wherever I go.  To allow.  To let go.  That's when beautiful things happen.

So, last night as I was going to sleep I was thinking of all the things I'm grateful for, as always, but this time, instead of thinking of the usual, like my family (for which, of course, I am always beyond grateful), I began to think of the little things...

* reading at bedtime (a favorite pastime...really, reading anytime)
* a warm buckwheat filled bag at my feet
* looking at the moon outside my window
* cuddling under cotton quilts
* my cozy flannel pj's
* a warm (finally) and sunny day (and evening)

And I slept like a baby. :)