Whenever I'm out with friends or family (in this case, my lovely husband) I become all philosphical...well, maybe I'm always that way as I was labelled a 'dreamer' by parents and teachers. I like to think of myself as reflective. Anyway, while we were out I saw this sign "How will you ever choose?" which I know was in reference to the menu, but it felt so much deeper than that.
I have always wondered what my next steps should be as I travel on this path. Am I making the right choices? What do I want the end result to be? And yet, I always know that whenever I stop and allow things to happen naturally, not only am I not frustrated and anxious, but the most wonderful things happen and I tend to have the greatest time. A reminder to be present. I don't know why not only do I need to be reminded of that daily, but constantly throughout each day.
I also recently read an article about the combination of opposite traits that make-up a Creative Personality and I find myself constantly fluctuating between every one of these ten sets of traits:
1. Energy / Rest
2. Smart / Naive
3. Playful / Disciplined
4. Imagination / Reality
5. Extroverted / Introverted
6. Humble / Proud
7. Masculine / Feminine
8. Rebellious / Conservative
9. Passionate / Objective
10. Open / Sensitive
No wonder I struggle. The times when I'm away from my studio are always the most difficult. I know I need that time in my sacred space to remain grounded, to live in the moment. I need to figure out how to carry that balance with me wherever I go. To allow. To let go. That's when beautiful things happen.
So, last night as I was going to sleep I was thinking of all the things I'm grateful for, as always, but this time, instead of thinking of the usual, like my family (for which, of course, I am always beyond grateful), I began to think of the little things...
* reading at bedtime (a favorite pastime...really, reading anytime)
* a warm buckwheat filled bag at my feet
* looking at the moon outside my window
* cuddling under cotton quilts
* my cozy flannel pj's
* a warm (finally) and sunny day (and evening)
And I slept like a baby. :)