Struggling.

I've been working on this 3x4 foot lily...well, struggling with it actually...and am absolutely uncertain as to it's direction.  Parts of it I absolutely love, which I think might be my biggest challenge.  I don't want to screw it up.  From experience I know that treating my paintings like they are too precious can be my downfall as I am loathe to push boundaries and experiment, which results in fear which leads to an impasse...I always think it must be a bit like writers' block.   Intellectually I know that I need to push some more darks and lights but, oh my goodness, this is difficult!  Maybe I should set it aside, turn it around, and stop thinking about it for awhile.  We'll see how that goes.